Life Comes Full Circle
August 23, 2020
You never know what life has in store for you and sometimes you just have to keep the faith.
My sweet nephew Nicholas was born in March 2011. Nicholas, as well as Rylyn’s other cousins Ethan, Alyssa, and Josie, taught me so many lessons about being an aunt which helped me become the mom I am today.
Rylyn and I are fortunate to live near the seacoast in New England. Years before Rylyn was born, Nicholas was at my house for a special day at the beach. Little did I know that I would be able to, literally, recreate this photo with Nicholas years later, but also with the son I waited for my entire life!
The photo below shows me holding my nephew in the surf when he was just a baby. I loved this picture because it captured an important moment for me. I loved Nicholas so much and it was just further confirmation that I was meant to be a mom. Because it was so special, I remember all the details of the day and I had it enlarged and made into a canvas print for my home.
Three years later, my life had come full circle and I was going through bins of hand-me-down clothes from my sister and sister-in-law while Rylyn did tummy time on the floor. In going through a bin of summer clothes I stopped when I saw the shirt, and then the shorts, then the bucket hat! It brought me back to that day on the beach with Nicholas. I quickly stripped Rylyn down to his diaper and put everything on him and it all reminded me of how bittersweet that day with Nicholas was when I wasn’t sure if I’d ever get to be a mom.
Shortly after, my sister and Nicholas came to see us at my house and I dressed Rylyn in the “Nicholas outfit,” and we went to the beach. I had a realization that day that you literally never know where your life will end up, you never know what miracles are in store for you, and you don’t know what you perceive as a missed opportunity or a mistake, changes your life so dramatically, and puts you on the path you were meant to be on…even though you may have resisted.
So in the photo below, I am crying (I am a crier), while holding my sweet nephew’s hand, and clutching the boy who was, and will always be, my miracle.
Life comes full circle.
You have to believe.
I had both photos enlarged, made into canvas prints and I display them in a prominent place in my home. They are a reminder to me each day how blessed I am to be an aunt, a Godmother, and a mom. They are also a reminder to me that life isn’t always easy, especially in these times, but you have no idea what is around the corner and you just have to believe…
To my little friend…not everyone has a “Nicholas” to help them keep believing. I am so lucky to be your aunt and your Godmother. There is something special about you, and the time I spent with you as a baby, that made me believe and not give up even when I wanted to. Thanks for helping me keep the faith.